I have fallen victim to thinking my life should be a stylized influencer instagram. I consume hours and hours of social media content. I am the targeted audience. I want to be one of the beautiful people with the perfect brunch lives. I want to be sent dazzling products to review and preface my posts with “#ad”, but sadly I am just a regular schmuck that works full time. My life is far from glamorous or instagram-worthy, but that doesn’t mean that my life doesn’t have value. I am married to a wonderful man, I have a loving and supportive immediate family, a few close friends, and of course a small gang of dogs. My house is constantly in a state of emergency, the laundry is backed up, there is typically always a dish in the sink, and the dog toys are everywhere. I’m tired. I work nightshift and have done so since I graduated college in 2013. I’m tired. I also struggle with anxiety and depression, so that fabulous instagram/youtube life that I so badly want is even farther from my grasp. I keep thinking “if only..”, if only I had a new camera I could take YouTube by storm, if only I had my house perfectly organized I could set up perfect stylized photos for insta, if only I did my make-up and hair everyday I would get to be one of “them”.
I don’t always do my make-up even though I have a burning passion for it because I’m tired most days. I don’t do much of the things because I’m living a full and exhausting life full of work and stress that leaves me barely meeting basic needs somedays. How do I recover from this instagram sickness? How do I meet myself in the middle and improve my life in the areas I want without the expectation of it being social media fabulous?
I’m going to work harder at organizing my house and living environment because it’s something I really want to do, but I will also work on losing the expectation I put on myself to be Mrs. Hinch perfect. I’m going to work on self care more and try to do things that make me feel good (make up, fashion) without thinking I have to live up to the “plus size influencers”. I’m going to work on my personal health but not feel that I have to be sucked into the “before and after” culture for my efforts to be worthy. I simply want to live a good and happy life and I can definitely help myself along the way.
(Photo: low quality snapchat save of my constant state of “tired” but featuring a cute dog)
This Memorial Day it was sunny and hot so I decided to do something I have never done in the past! I wore a outfit that allowed me to stay cool and one I thought was cute.
My Husband captured a photo of me grilling and initially I vetoed the photo because it highlights a lot of things I dislike about myself. I feel like at 31 years old I need to let go of the thought process of needing to be flattering. I posted this upcoming photo to my Instagram and felt okay with it!
Love yourself just as your are, you are not the “before” you.
Ferror Rocher Easter Cupcakes
While browsing the aisles of my local Rite Aid the Easter candy caught my attention. I found some Ferror Rocher eggs that looked tempting and like something that would find wonderful inside a cupcake. I crafted the idea of doing a vanilla cupcake base with a Ferror Rocher nestled in the middle and all of that topped with a delightful whipped nutella buttercream frosting and crowns with an additional Ferror Rocher. I had a few leftover cupcakes so I topped them with a beautiful vanilla buttercream for my Husband as he isn’t a fan on chocolate. These were a huge hit and I would love to make them again but with a chocolate base. Recipe to follow.
Cupcake Base (Martha Stewart’s recipe):
- 3 cups all-purpose flour
- 1 1/2 tsp. baking powder
- 3/4 tsp. salt
- 1 1/2 softened sticks unsalted butter
- 4 large eggs
- 2 tsp. pure vanilla extract
- 1 1/4 cups whole milk
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. While the oven is preheating line your cupcake pans with liners of your choosing. I got mine from Amazon. In a medium bowl mix together your flour, baking powder, and salt; set aside. In another bowl cream butter and sugar until light and fluffy. Crack eggs into separate bowl if worried about shells. Mix eggs one at a time into cream and sugar mixture. Once eggs are all incorporated add the vanilla. Once you have both mixtures it’s time to start alternating butter mixture with flour mixture and milk. Divide your final mixture between your cupcake liners; I use a ice cream scoop to do this. Make sure your liners are 3/4 full and then pop them into the oven for 20 mins (check after 15 mins because ovens vary so much). Insert a toothpick into the center of a cupcake and if it comes out clean it’s time to remove your cupcakes from the pan and cool them on a rack.
(I added in the Ferror Rocher egg to the middle of the cupcake base prior to baking)
Whipped Nutella Buttercream:
- 2 sticks unsalted butter; softened
- 2 cups powdered sugar
- 2/3 cup nutella spread
- 1 tsp. pure vanilla extract
- 1/4 tsp. kosher salt
- 2 Tbsp. heavy cream (or quality whole milk; I use full fat milk with the cream on top when I don’t have heavy cream on hand)
Cream the softened butter until pale yellow. Add in the nutella, vanilla, and salt. Once combined start adding in your powdered sugar little by little alternating with the heavy cream (add more or less depending on how stiff you’d like your frosting; I went for a medium consistency).
Using a large star tip I pipped a rosette like shape and nestle the plain Ferror Rocher on top.